Tumblr thoughts

I logged into Tumblr today. Part of me was curious to see what people had to say under "I want to disappear". As I continued to scroll down, post after post, there were only sad, empty, and self-hatred thoughts. It made me feel shocked at times, yet part of me related to some. It made me feel weird to see how many posts I found. It almost made me question whether or not these were all truthful or if most of them were being perpetrated by this website, or other social media. I guess it could help with awareness, but it is also helping continue this endless cycle that spirals the fragile into a hopeless pit of emptiness and sadness. I don't know where I wanted to take this, but it was just an observation I made. Life's tough, and our socially constructed ways have made these things worse for some while continuing to ignore the issue. I don't know. I really wish it was possible to talk to people who are gone, but we don't always know if that is possible, or just a thought our minds begin to construct. All I know is that I've learned to appreciate the green in life a lot more than I used to. Well, that is if I'm being present at all. Sometimes it's difficult to not fall into these daily routines, but we all have a love/hate relationship with routines. Just more jumbled up thoughts. The end I guess. Not sure how to end this, so I'll leave it at that for now.